meh.

Closer | Tegan and Sara

Sat, 25 May 2013 00:41:52 -0700

Closer | Tegan and Sara

delshady: theunfathomable: delshady: jessicadnguyen: theunfathomable replied to your post: ...

Fri, 24 May 2013 22:52:59 -0700

theunfathomable:

delshady:

jessicadnguyen:

theunfathomable replied to your post: theunfathomable replied to your post: Heres what…

I LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO MAKE UP FOR ANY HATE YOU HAVE FOR YOURSELF <3

WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE YOU IN MY LIFE YOU PRECIOUS HUMAN BEING.

You all deserve juice.

oh no it spilled :/

(ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ JUICE BOXES FOR EVERYONE

There is a direct correlation between my stress levels and how many juice pouches I consume a day.

Fri, 24 May 2013 16:11:00 -0700

diverged: I think I’m emotionally constipated because I haven’t given a shit in months

Fri, 24 May 2013 16:03:00 -0700

diverged:

I think I’m emotionally constipated because I haven’t given a shit in months

"You’re still going to get criticized, so you might as well do whatever the fuck you want."

Thu, 23 May 2013 20:33:00 -0700

“You’re still going to get criticized, so you might as well do whatever the fuck you want.”

- Kathleen Hanna

Love Bug // Jonas Brothers I HEARD THIS THE OTHER DAY AND...

Thu, 23 May 2013 01:20:07 -0700

Love Bug // Jonas Brothers

I HEARD THIS THE OTHER DAY

AND OMFG

ALL. THE. MEMORIES.

nopenopenope

Tue, 21 May 2013 23:19:00 -0700

nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope nope

Dear mom,

DONE

WITH

YOUR

SHIT

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Tue, 21 May 2013 20:29:13 -0700

crapuccinos: i am like a hexagon all my hecks r gone

Mon, 20 May 2013 18:52:00 -0700

crapuccinos:

i am like a hexagon

all my hecks r gone

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Mon, 20 May 2013 18:36:34 -0700

I don't know why I'm doing this to myself...

Mon, 20 May 2013 15:46:00 -0700

BUT I’M STARTING SUPERNATURAL OVER.

AGH.

THEY LOOKED SO YOUNG AND HAPPY IN SEASON ONE, BEFORE EVERYONE THEY HELD NEAR AND DEAR DIED.

Well, before they died for that matter.

EUGH ;________;

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Mon, 20 May 2013 11:00:00 -0700

“Date yourself. Take yourself out to eat. Don’t share your popcorn at the movies with...

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:15:00 -0700

“Date yourself. Take yourself out to eat. Don’t share your popcorn at the movies with anyone. Stroll around an art museum alone. Fall in love with canvases. Fall in love with yourself.”

I remember staring at that quote, all sorts of confused. Like, people actually tolerate themselves enough to do shit like that? I can’t be alone with myself or my thoughts for more than ten minutes without wanting to slam my head against the wall. I constantly have to be doing something, watching something, eating something, listening to something, reading something- otherwise I only have myself to entertain- and goodness asdhlsfgd gracious, I irritate myself more than other people irritate me, so I can’t have that.

I dunno.
Levels of self-loathing, (and what’s the other term, inferiority complex?), were just reaching those highs again.
Topped with having to deal with the repercussions of my recent decisions concerning school.

Dear Ms.Chowdhury,

Our records indicate that your GPA has dropped below the required 3.0 to maintain your status as one of our scholarship recipients. We regret to inform you that as of the 2013-2014 academic school year, you will no longer be….

With an extra side of diabetes staring you in the face. How do you explain to your endocrinologists that after twelve years, you still just don’t give a fuck?

Your A1c is at 11.4…why aren’t you checking your blood sugars? Why aren’t you taking your insulin? We’ve been stuck here at square one a little too long haven’t we?

My little six-by-six corner of the room just seems so much easier to retreat to.

Being around people, even friends, has just made me despise myself all the more.

How the hell do you have your shit figured out already? I’m freaking 19, why the fuck don’t I know what I’m doing.

I’m halfway done with my college career. Why don’t I have my shit together already?

You consider me a friend. You put up with me. HOW? WHY? I don’t deserve your sympathy, your time, your shoulder, your friendship.

So yes, I’ve taken back to my corner. Time out? Detention with myself. Get your shit together, don’t burden other people with your negativity and presence.

I’m so much more trouble than I’m worth.

So, the past week, I’ve tolerated myself. Went to the movies by myself. Took a long train ride by myself. Went to my favorite museum by myself. Took myself out to dinner.

Tolerated myself. Mostly because there’s no other choice. It’s not like I can tear my consciousness from myself.

But seriously, how do people like themselves?

"I am not happy. I am not unhappy. I am frozen somewhere in the middle that is so much worse. I am..."

Sun, 19 May 2013 18:41:00 -0700

“I am not happy. I am not unhappy. I am frozen somewhere in the middle that is so much worse. I am nowhere. Nothing is happening and I am getting more and more sad.”

- Samantha Schutz, I Don’t Want to be Crazy

Farewell Bill Hader - Thank you for eight seasons of...

Sun, 19 May 2013 13:36:52 -0700

Farewell Bill Hader - Thank you for eight seasons of homoeroticism, spot-on impressions, unique characters, dirty dancing, and hilarious breaking.

Close Enough // Tove Styrke

Sun, 19 May 2013 12:40:42 -0700

Close Enough // Tove Styrke

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Sun, 19 May 2013 00:26:33 -0700

Mental Health and Islam

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:32:00 -0700

lespritmodestee:

The fact of the matter is that anything that’s associated with mental health is still very much a taboo topic in most Muslim households and is something very few Muslim families will deal with in a healthy and appropriate manner.

Call it lack of correct knowledge, ignorance, anticipated shame or just misunderstanding the obvious, but depression, anxiety, personality disorders, schizophrenia and eating disorders, the list is pretty endless, are all very much taken as unnecessary burdens and degrading labels upon the family and usually the correct help is taken at a monumentally slow pace and certain emotions are often neglected.

This is pathetic given the fact that Islam places a major, major emphasis on maintaining one’s own health and wellbeing, not just physical, but also mental and spiritual. Our society is still, to this day, plagued with a dark cloud of ignorance and a far more active dialogue needs to be initiated within the Muslim community about mental health because the truth is, many of our own parents still view any unhealthy shift in one’s consciousness as culturally scandalous and would rather not accept that yes, their child isn’t necessary just “having a bad mood”.

No one chooses to become mentally ill, just as no one chooses to become physically ill. Yes certain choices and predispositions can perhaps induce certain states but for the most part, illness of any sort is not necessarily the fault of the sufferer. If anyone falls ills, their sins may be expiated to some extent, Allah knows best.

There is no shame whatsoever in getting the correct professional help that one needs. There is no embarrassment in talking to someone about your emotions. There is nothing degrading about accepting that you or someone you know may be suffering from a chronic mental illness. There is no harm done whatsoever in embracing the fact that you can pave your way back to a healthy state of mind and begin living your life again.

The only way we’re going to challenge these cultural norms is if we actively talk about the problem that’s becoming more and more evident in our own homes and cities. If you know of a friend or family member that is pushing the idea that they may need to see a professional but their family is disregarding their claims as a flamboyant attempt to get some much needed attention, then make an effort to talk to someone you trust and somehow show those people that maybe something other than nothing can be done, maybe this really is something serious, maybe you really can help stop something in its early stages from progressing into something detrimental.

There’s nothing wrong with seeking help and more people need to be okay with that. We have to talk about this stuff.

"I was settled into nothingness; a kind of non-being, and I accepted it. I didn’t make for an..."

Sat, 18 May 2013 10:43:00 -0700

“I was settled into nothingness; a kind of non-being, and I accepted it. I didn’t make for an interesting person. I didn’t want to be interesting, it was too hard. What I really wanted was only a soft, hazy space to live in, and to be left alone.”

- Charles Bukowski

Finally found the phone case that I wanted 8D

Fri, 17 May 2013 19:46:00 -0700

Finally found the phone case that I wanted 8D